I found that the many good habits I've worked so hard to form have been mercilessly slipping away these days. Been staying up late, waking up late, not responding to messages, filling my body with sugar, caffeine, and shit fired food, and filling my brain with shit information and imagery. Not sure what changed, although i guess i have my ideas. Its interesting how the re-stoking of a relationship brings back a certain state of mind--suppose that is the poverty mindset for me, the one where I don't have enough, am not enough; etc. I suppose its a good thing to be aware of this mindset, but still, its time to get back on the grind. Leaving for tour in 10 days. Got a few projects with people to finish, and a project of my own. Time doesn't stop.
Blocking someone or something out is still attachment.
We often crave things that are no good for us.
The post-modern individual faces more problems of excess than lack.
Going for a run through through the neighborhood and then Wim-Hoffing (Breathing exercise + Push ups)
Going to lunch with Mom.
Catching up with Yogie and Keez at the house and showing them some new music. Being worn out and grumpy and slowly developing a smile.
Thank you rain for coming down from the skying and asking no one for permission to do so.
Thank you Mom for lunch today and for having my back and supporting the music.
Thank you Yogie and Keez for making it out to the West Coast and for believing in the music, for always bringing good vibes and keeping it real no matter what.
I pray for Mom to continue working hard and to close the deals she has open.
I pray for Dad to find some work and earn some money and to not be so stressed out. I pray stormy (the cat) might be a little less restless and a little more considerate tonight and let him sleep soundly through the night.
I pray for Yogie and Keez to continue making moves out here in California and to put on a great show tomorrow at the open mic night in the city.